Dark & Twisty VS happy and peaceful....

A lot of time in the past, I have been angry / upset / sad / negative / etc with the world and "bad" things that happened...

But for me now, it is a lot better to not focus, not to think - about such things.
I might take a minute - and be angry - full of rage - for a minute - and then move on.
Turning my thoughts to better things - makes me feel better and clears up my mind.
When negative thoughts come - pushing them out and thinking about better things helps with stress and anxiety.
Anything from being upset/angry that I am in traffic - focusing my thoughts on the fact that I do have a car - a good - reliable car. I might be stuck in traffic, but at least I am in a good car, with music.
Or the other day, when I started getting really bummed out that my *late* grandparents would not be able to attend the wedding we're having (B&I)
I choose to think, of the good memories I have of my grandparents. They might not be here today and won't be at the wedding, but I have a memory full of good, happy times that I spent with them.
Not everyone is bless with good grandparents,who helped raise them up. I can't bring them back - I can't change that (or the times in traffic or other things 'get to me') but I can't change my thoughts. And try to focus on something that makes me feel better.

Dwelling and thinking about the sad/bad/upsetting/etc things that are beyond my control and beyond me changing - doesn't really do anything - it doesn't change it. It's not going to make traffic clear up, it's not going to put tons of money in my bank account, and it definitely won't bring my late grandparents back.
It only stresses me out / gets me down / etc.

It's taken me a long time to get to this place mentally.
-those are my thoughts currently-

Some people are blessed with 'positive thinking' - so to speak. Focusing on good things comes EASY to them.
For me, it has been more of a learning process.

Last name and Wedding check list? =/

I know my last name is not that common, and that is one of the reasons,
I want to hyphen   Mylastname-Hislastname

I mostly like my last night. Even though my grandparents have pasted, it makes me feel connected to them. (Names are silly really - they are just words we call each other... )

People WANT to come to our wedding...

Originally we had 60-ish ppl on the guest list.
We were thinking that our out of state families probably would NOT be able to make it.
Turns out MOST all our out of state families, are super excited about the wedding, and also will be able to make it!

Now we are think it will be more than 82 people. -Holy moly- That is a lot of people. The max per the location limit is 120. So we still have wiggle room.
It's good! We are happy that are families will actually be able to come! It will be awesome. =]

It just means some of our local friends won't be getting invited...

I've had people ASK me about the wedding plans/date/etc that I don't think I can invite... =[
It is HARD to "hint" and/or straight up tell them you are working on the guest list, but they probably won't be on it.

Honestly, I am surprised and a little shocked that so many people want to come and are excited about it...

If we were to invite everyone we wanted, there would be over 130 ppl on the list.
And as I typing this I'm thinking of more people I'd wish I could add!

Food Passport - I made

Notebook - mocking a passport with Restaurants to try. I got the idea from: http://www.newlywedsonabudget.net/2013/02/easy-diy-gift-for-him-food-passport.html